I don't know. i just need to gain my own self motivation.

yeah , i think this month is a broken-heart month.
i just don't know. what i can see now, is everyone around me like having their hard time.
LOVE is the main problem now.
They fallen love and then problems came.
soo. they broke up or been cheated or having a one-side love ( definitely me )
and they give up.

they cry.
they hurt.
they lost hope.
they weak.
they confuse.
they sad.
they angry.
they unable to think rationally
they lost appetite.

and all these things are the symptoms of broken heart.
Boys are the most undefined species.
we don't know them well.
we cannot predict what they going to do.
and they are very complicated.

me, as a normal girl obviously having the same problem.
i love a guy, and he doesn't love me back.
but i keep my mind as simple as i could.
i don't have to cry hard for a boy who doesn't appreciate me.
i need to be strong.
i have Allah SWT.
i have my religion and my iman.

wake up girls.
its not the end of the world.
you guys deserve better.
because you guys are the best.
you know , just don't give up.

Girls are the strongest creature ever.

just remember this phrase , you will be okay like forever :)
okay then , you have to make your own choices.
whether you want to be a loser or a winner.
its your choice,girls.

assalammualaikum , mornight.
xoxoxo

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basically today, what I want to say is TIRED. yes.
Thats only word that i could ever think now.
tired with all the dramas.
tired with all the fucking people.
tired with miserable life.
tired with the feeling insecure.
and eventually , I am totally tired with everything.

maybe i am not strong enough.
but, i just don't know.

okay guys. going to stop here.
assalammualaikum.

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And this is my second entry for today.
HAHAHA. its my blog and i can post how many entry i want in a day right?
have you guys ever been bullied before ?
I am sure, that would not be a great moment to be reminds of.
Actually I never be a bully-victim before, and i never want to be.
its sucks.
and nowadays, social networks contribute a lot in this problem.
I pick Amanda Todd as example.
She killed herself on October 10.2012 because she had been bullied through social networks.
Click here to read more about this case.
haihh. now, we keep bashing each other on twitter.
wake up peeps !

These people have feelings. They might do some mistakes, but just wake up. Nobody is perfect.
I also read about Phoebe Prince in the internet.
if you guys want to know more, just click here.
erghhh, stop play dumb people. stop this, they have a precious life. why can't you let them go ?


just, i don't know what to say.
i just disappointed with people nowadays.
maybe, this world is too old.
maybe, we can't differentiate between truth or false
maybe, we all are at the end of the world
maybe, people aren't happy when there are a litlle peace in life.
I just don't know.
Just tired.
okay peeps.
assalammualaikum.

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yes. i need someone.
just someone that i can even counting on in everything i do.
Just simply said, i cannot live alone in this world. Thats all.
assalammualaikum.
baibai peeps.

welcome back again ! と( ° . ° )つ  PEEK-A-BOOO!
haha, this is lame. i am not a child anymore but its really fun to act like a child.
and today, i am back to my normal life.  HAHAHA whatt ?!! 
now i am worrying. About my  second semester in UiTM.
haih. 
Is everything going to be okay?
I don't even know. and I just do not fucking care.
Let's see.. I don't know I what to do right now. My mind is fucking blank. But still, I want to write.
HAHAHA.
Today, I discovered everything went quite boring. NO FUN at all.
anddddddd when i am in boring mood, i think about future.
And when i think about future, i definitely think about YOU !
hey, not you lah readers ! *evil laugh*
and i can't wait to see him this upcoming semester, but i am hoping that he still same class with me :D
I just hope soo.
okay, I don't know what else to write. guess this entry ends here now.
soo, thankyou for reading. wish me all goodluck for next semester jyeahh :D
assalammualaikum. baibai.

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Hello there. yeah, I am here now. Alhamdulillah I am still alive *cliche* HAHAHA. Okay back to normal. Today all i felt was all about lifeless. its not that I am not appreciate this one precious life but sighh. I just dont know. Are the people out there trying to appreciate me? I have friends, soo many I guess but some of them are fake and some of them certainly doesnt. And currently, i found myself fallen love. HAAAA ?? WHAT THE HECK?!! Yes , I do *blushing*
and i barely think about anyone else besides him.
His smile
His body language
His jokes
His stupid weirdo faces
His motivation talks
His style
and all about HIM.
But even weird when i said that i never meet him yet right?
HAHAHA.This is a true story, not a fairytail anymore.
Eventually I really met this guy. But ONLY in my dream.
like seriously, these aren't lies. I never tell lies *kay tipuuu*
but, i think i really deeply falling love with him.
I remember clearly his face, he wears a pair of earrings.
He have somekind like chinese-malay mixblood.
He has a beautiful smile (which i think soo)
I can barely remember his smell *eventhough it was a dream*
He has a deep voice and i melted to death :)
But i think since that was a dream, can i meet him ?
I really want to see him in real life, but do him exists?
sighh, i really want him. i really need a guy like him.
it might sounds desperate, but I really need a guy to fall in love with.
HAHA, soo i would like to be a princess. I want my prince from my dreams.
souuuuund cheeeeeeeeeessy right?
I LOVE CHEESE ! okay, i am going to start muttering. soo better i finish this entry.
thankyou for reading :) and please pray that the guy in my dream are realllllllly exist so he can hug,cuddle and marry me. HAHAHAHAHA. baibai, ASSALAMMUALAIKUM~

Yahh, then i should show some efforts to make it worthy. 

Just follow the flow of this life, never  look back. Memory never hurt you, but its the past.
So, finally i decided to be good person that I would be. I am going to make up a good - great relationship with all people. Urghh, just forget about the romance for a moment. I am believe that Allah SAW arrange everything for me very smoothly and pretty. Its okay for not having a boyfriend now, but i have a great family some awesome friends and even i can still enjoy my studies now.

Alhamdulillah. I am trying to be better not perfect. nobody is perfect right ? but I am nobody and this is a lame-bored quote. So don't be afraid to move on. Take another one little-tiny step towards maturity and life would be great. Stop all the childish behaviour,set up your mind and be mature.
thats all I can said now.

soo, this entry is quite serious. sorry for bore you guys. but hey, thankyou for reading.
assalammualaikum :)

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1. Salu disalah anggap sebagai budak sekolah menengah ( dalam lingkungan form3 or form4)

2. Seringkali ditahan utk tgk movie yg mengandungi perkataan 18 (etc : 18sg.18sx)

3. Dipaksa untuk membeli buku reference spm or pmr oleh salesman/salesgirl yg bajet dewasa

.4. Tidak dipedulikan sewaktu aktiviti tawar menawar di pasar-pasar kerana terlindung oleh org yg lebih tinggi.

5. Sering memakai wedges or high heels bg menutup ke-khilafan ke-tidaktinggian mereka (bg yg perempuan sahaja)

6. Segan nak jalan di sebelah boyfriend/girlfriend yg tnggi kerana takut diketawakan di khlayak ramai

7. Mengalami kesukaran untk melompat longkang yg agak besar jaraknya *kaki pendek*

8. Selalu minum susu and makan calciyum bg meningkatkan ketinggian *ni tipu daya iklan semata-mata

 9. Suka berkawan dgn org yg ber-ketinggian tak seberapa kerana akan nampak setaraf.

assalammualaikum uollsss *gediks style* ahahaa. okay, takmau gedik-gedik.. semua nya buat aku termuntah.
nampak tak gmbr kat atas tu? nampak? haha,today i want to officially announce that i am a DIRECTIONER. hehe, and i am proud with that.
walaupun ramai org cakap 1D ni gay boyband tapi kami sebagai directioner kalis gossipp ! (hidung kembang kempis tahan nafas)

jadi hari ni aku nak perkenalkan the members of directioner.

1. Louis Tomlinson

Louis William Tomlinson, born Louis Troy Austin, 24 December 1991 (age 20), is from Doncaster, South Yorkshire, England.[116] Born to mother Johannah Poulston and father Troy Austin, his parents split when he was young and he took on his stepfather Mark Tomlinson's name. He has five younger half-sisters, and two of them had roles as babies on television series Fat Friends, on which he would go along and serve as an extra. After Fat Friends, he attended an acting school in Barnsley. He had small parts in an ITV1 drama film If I Had You and BBC's Waterloo Road.He was a sixth form student at Hall Cross School, a state comprehensive school, and a former pupil of the Hayfield School.He revealed that he failed his first year of A levels at the Hayfield School. He ended up going back to Hall Cross and started A levels over again. He had a number of jobs, including at a Vue cinema and at Doncaster Rovers football stadium as a waiter in their hospitality suites.
As a student at Hall Cross, Tomlinson starred in several musical productions.Tomlinson revealed that landing the lead role of Danny Zuko in a high school musical production of Grease motivated him to audition for The X Factor. Tomlinson cites Robbie Williams as his biggest influence and idol. In an interview with Now Magazine, he stated: "I've always loved [Robbie]. He's just so cheeky, he can get away with anything. His performances are unbelievable." He also admires recording artist Ed Sheeran, describing him as "phenomenal."

2. Zayn Malik

Zain Javadd "Zayn" Malik, born 12 January 1993 (age 19) *currently have same zodiac with me_winkwink* in St. Luke's Hospital, is from Bradford, West Yorkshire, England. Born to British Pakistani father Yaser and an English mother, Tricia Malik (née Brannan), he has one older sister Doniya, and two younger sisters Waliyha and Safaa. He grew up in East Bowling, and was a pupil at Lower Fields Primary School and went to Tong High School, a state comprehensive school.Malik did not fit in at his first two schools due to his mixed heritage, revealing that when he and his older sister moved schools he felt he fitted in better.After moving schools at the age twelve, Malik, states he started taking pride in his appearance.
On auditioning for The X Factor, Malik said "I was looking for an experience". He cites urban music as his main musical influence, growing up, he was into R&B and rap.He as well as other members of One Direction further notes artists such as Bruno Mars, as a "dream collaborator."Malik is addicted to smoking cigarettes; in late 2011, he expressed his desire to quit.Malik once wrote on Twitter, "La ila ha ill lalla ho muhammed door rasoolalah", a message which is regarded as a common declaration of faith among Muslims meaning: "There is no God but Allah and Muhammad is the prophet of Allah."

3. Liam Payne

 Liam James Payne, born 29 August 1993 (age 19), is from Wolverhampton, West Midlands, England.Born three weeks early to mother Karen and father Geoff,he has two older sisters, Ruth and Nicola. Until the age of four, Payne had regular tests done in hospital as doctors noticed one of his kidneys was scarred and dysfunctional. To help cope with the pain, he had 32 injections in his arm in the morning and evening as a child. As a student, Payne was heavily involved in sports. Payne was bullied in secondary school and took up boxing lessons at the age of twelve. He was a music technology student at City of Wolverhampton College.
Payne had once performed in front of a 26,000 crowd at a Wolverhampton Wanderers' football match.Payne first auditioned in 2008 to The X Factor's fifth series when he was fourteen.He made it to the judges' houses, but Cowell thought he was not ready for the competition and asked him to come back in two years. Payne cites Justin Timberlake as one of his biggest influences.[ He also says he draws inspiration from Take That member Gary Barlow when performing.

 4. Niall Horan

 Niall James Horan, born 13 September 1993 (age 19), is from Mullingar, County Westmeath, Republic of Ireland.Born to mother Maura Gallagher and father Bobby Horan,he has an older brother named Greg. Their parents divorced when he was five.He and his brother lived between each of their homes for a few years before eventually deciding to live with their father in Mullingar. Horan was a pupil at Coláiste Mhuire, a boys' Christian Brothers school. He was in the school choir, performing seasonally around Christmas.
Prior to participating in The X Factor, he performed around his homeland, including as a support act for Lloyd Daniels in Dublin.
 Horan has been playing guitar since his childhood.
 Horan has also stated that he is a "big swing" fan, citing favourite artists Frank Sinatra, Dean Martin and Michael Bublé. Horan also cites rock music favourably and is a fan of The Eagles, Bon Jovi and The Script.

5. Harry Styles

 Harry Edward Styles, born 1 February 1994 (age 18) is from the village of Holmes Chapel, Cheshire, England.He is a former pupil at Holmes Chapel Comprehensive School, a state comprehensive school.Born to mother Anne Cox and father Des Styles, he has an older sister, Gemma.He was seven when their parents divorced, his mother later getting remarried. Following the divorce, Styles, his older sister and mother moved further out into the Cheshire countryside.At the age of twelve he moved back to Holmes Chapel.Prior to participating in The X Factor, the then sixteen-year-old Styles had a part-time job at the W. Mandeville Bakery in Holmes Chapel.
Styles was the lead singer for the band White Eskimo with band members lead guitarist Haydn Morris, bass guitarist Nick Clough and drummer Will Sweeny. They had once entered a Battle of the Bands competition, which they won. As a child, Styles loved singing, noting Elvis Presley as one of his influences. He also cites Presley for his musical beginnings. Styles also cites contemporaries, Foster the People, Coldplay and Kings of Leon among his influences. Styles states that The X Factor gave him "a lot more" confidence as a performer and singer. Styles says that he often looks to Coldplay front man Chris Martin for inspiration when performing on stage.Styles also states that The Beatles had a profound influence on him growing up, as his father would play their music.

soo, thats all for today.. mianhae sbb panjang :3 looooooveeeee 1D foreverrr kay :D
gomawo for reading :* and big hugss for pakcik wikipedia too :D

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